May PD8


– May Cycle Day 8 –

I had slight lower back pain in the morning. I took ibuprofen after breakfast, I knew that the pain will escalate after I go number 2. Prevention is important. I learn it the hard way.

I almost had no pain at all, all day after I took ibuprofen in the morning. Around 6 pm I started to have lower back pain (3-4/10), I was cooking dinner. I took another ibuprofen to relieve the pain. The pain level has decreased but until 9 pm I still feel slight lower back pain (2/10) and random rectum pain (2/10). What a life…

Ramadan has started 5 days ago but I haven’t started fasting because of my period and the pain. I’m planning to fast tomorrow. I need to fast so my body has time to repair itself. 

God has mercy… please let my body feel less to no pain tomorrow πŸ™πŸΌπŸ™πŸΌπŸ™πŸΌ 

My uterus… my body… please be strong πŸ™πŸΌπŸ™πŸΌπŸ™πŸΌ 

May PD7


– May Cycle Day 7 –

Today is day 7 of my cycle. The bleeding has stopped but the pain still here. I took 1 ibuprofen in the morning because I felt light lower back pain and lower abdomen pain. An hour after that I felt no pain at all.

At 4 pm I decided to take a walk to groceries store. I want to restart my walking exercise. I have been very lazy these last 4 months. I seldom did yoga and walk. I walked for 2.6km. When I arrived at the groceries store I have started to feel lower back pain and cramps. Now I’m on bus otw home, the pain has escalated to level 3-4. I need to survive until I arrives home. God help me πŸ™πŸΌ

Update:

I made it home. I walked like a snail but I made it! πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚ I took one ibuprofen with ryes bread and water. Now I just need to wait for the medicine to work. I have ordered some food from A Chinese restaurant nearby my apartment, so it’s all good!

May PD5


Period day 5 was yesterday, it was quite easy. I had back pain, lower abdomen pain, and my favorite devil, rectum pain. 

The rectum pain is so unbearable for me, it feels like someone is stabbing my rectum with knife. It goes so deep and painful, and it comes and goes anytime it wants. The pain will elevate after I go number 2. As a prevention, I usually take ibuprofen before I do my business πŸ˜†πŸ˜†πŸ˜† OMG, why am I talking about this? It’s so gross! πŸ˜†πŸ˜†πŸ˜†

I ate doughnuts yesterday because my husband bought some green tea doughnuts for me. As you can guess, my uterus complained not long after I eat it. It’s the wheat and sugar. Welcome back inflammation! 😈😈😈

PAIN CHECKER 

Pain level: 2-3/10

Symptoms: lower back pain, lower abdomen pain, rectum pain, swelly belly 

May PD3


It’s day 3 of my period. I woke up at 1am because I felt so much pain on my lower back. I felt like somebody hit my lower back with baseball bat over and over again. I had cramps, it wasn’t the worst and I felt nauseous. 

I took ibuprofen around 3:30am. Watched Family Guy so I can distract the pain while waiting the ibuprofen working. I fell asleep after a couple episodes and then woke up around 7am because of another series of pain.

I made honey lemon water, for detox. I had to wait for 30 minutes before I took ibuprofen with rice porridge that I bought last night. The pain was severe, especially the lower back pain. I could only cry while waiting the ibuprofen to react. I ordered papaya takeaway. I know it will help to reduce the inflammation. But I had to wait for 30 minutes for the delivery. When you’re in so much pain, even 30 minutes feels like forever.

It’s 10:18 now. The ibuprofen had been reacting, the pain level had decreased from 7 to 3/4. I also just ate my papaya, I don’t feel nauseous anymore. 

My body’s feels so sore from the pain. I bleed so much, I felt that I have no energy. I don’t have any iron supplements, I might need to get a supply. 

I feel so tired and beaten. This disease got me good. I need to get some rest.

I Miss The Times When…


Here comes the pain again… it’s mild… but… I miss the times when…

I didn’t feel any pain

I could run although I didn’t like it

I could eat tempeh and eggplants sambal

I could eat whatever I wanted 

I could go out anytime I want

I had big belly because it’s stuffed with food not because it’s swollen

I miss the time when my life was normal πŸ˜”


I’m having a really hard time this week, not physically because of the pain but psychologically. I don’t have a stable job, I have small business to run but the business has been very slow lately. I’m broke. I have my husband who supports me and I’m grateful for that, but being unable to support myself financially is the lowest point of my life. I used to be an independent woman, and I was so proud of it. Now I have nothing to be proud of. This disease is running my life.

My last period was more painful than the previous one. I know I messed up my diet again. But I was thinking was it the only factor? Or was it because this disease’s progression is faster than my efforts to fix the damages it caused? I just don’t know…

To be honest, I don’t know what to do anymore… I will have period in a couple day, I don’t know what to expect.

Adenomyosis Journal: Dec 2016 – Apr 2017

On December 2016 I decided to start eating clean / do endo diet. My doctor told me I have to change my diet to lower the pain level. It’s not an easy road for me. There are sometimes that I slipped and eat the inflammatory food more than what my doctor allowed, which is once a week. 

I started to track my food and ibuprofen intake on December 2016. I also tracked my pain level so I can conclude what is the relationship between my food and my pain level.

Sneak peek of my journal:

Adenomyosis Journal – December 2016
Dec 2016 – 16 pain free days, 15 painful days, ibuprofen taken 25*200mg, pain level range: 1-8
Adenomyosis journal- January 2017
Jan 2017 – 10 pain free days, 21 painful days, ibuprofen taken 18*200mg, pain level range: 1-7, violations: 26
Adenomyosis Journal – January 2017
Feb 2017 – 14 pain free days, 14 painful days, ibuprofen taken 24*200mg + 18*200mg (2 cycles), pain level range: 1-6, violations: 50+19 (2 cycles)
Adenomyosis journal- March 2017
Mar 2017 – 19 pain free days, 12 painful days, ibuprofen taken 7*200mg, pain level range: 1-5, violations: 13
Adenomyosis journal: April 2017
Apr 2017 – 16 pain free days, 14 painful days, ibuprofen taken 19*200mg, pain level range: 1-5, violations: 21
 

It has been almost 5 months since I started my endo diet. The highest pain level has lowered from 8 to 5. My best performance was on March, I only took 7 ibuprofen in 1 cycle with highest pain level 5/10 and only 9 painful days.

 At the end of March I slipped, I drank dairy several times, I ate wheat bread, and I ate fishes more than I should be. On early April I did the same mistakes. The result was I had 11 painful days with 19 ibuprofen was taken. From 7 ibuprofen back to 19. We can see how significant the effect of dairy and fish to my body. 

At the fourth week of April I did another stupid things, I ate duck meat three times in a week. I also ate a bunch of sweet peanuts snack. I know I will pay for this on my end of April – May cycle πŸ˜–

As you can see, the endo diet actually works to lessen the pain. The problem was me, I’ve been unable to keep on track. 

I liked it when I didn’t have to take so many ibuprofen.  I liked it when I have less pain. But it’s so hard to be consistent😞 

I’m not giving up yet, I will try again. I will do better this month!